Handling Money
Handling with Respect
What do I know about handling money? When I first came across Mary Morrissey she had
us take out our wallets and examine the contents. We had to see how we handled the
physical stuff. Was it all just jammed in hickeldy pickle or was it all neatly arranged? Were
there hoards of receipts from transactions?
I saw that mine was a bit of a mess and ever since then I have made a point of making
sure that all the notes of the same denomination are together and the same way round. I
make sure the edges are straightened. I sometimes receive notes that are all folded up
and the corners mushed and it makes me wonder if the person giving me that does not
really respect it.
Symbol of Freedom
I got the notion that money deserves to be respected, loved even. Not loved in the sense
of coveting it but as a symbol of freedom. There is something about having some money
in my wallet which gives me a sense of security. Something that used to be sadly lacking
in my life.
When I heard the idea of keeping a hundred dollar bill in my wallet I saved up and went to
the bank to get a crisp one hundred dollar bill. I loved that. Ever since I have made sure to
have one. The rule, I was told, is that it could only be spent if it could be replaced
immediately.
What was it about having that bill in my wallet? I think it’s to do with the fact that every
time I open my wallet I see it there and it somehow reassures that part of my brain that
thinks “scarcity” that no there really is enough. It’s funny in these covid times when I
hardly ever use cash to still have that.
Money is like Water
In Lynne Twist’s book the Soul of Money she has a section called “money is like water.”
Gertrude says that for some people it rushes through their lives but for her it’s a little
trickle but she wants it to have the most impact. Think about that for a moment. Using our
money to have an impact.
It’s more than just having money to spend. It’s about being a good steward of this means
of exchange. It’s the only thing that doesn’t rot yet Charles Fillmore says unless we go
behind the money itself to the idea to the spiritual substance at the back of it our money
is subject to rust and moth damage.
Spiritual Substance
What does he mean? I take it to mean that pursuit of money is not the goal. Rather we are
to cultivate a feeling that everything is already taken care of. That the universe is a friendly
abundant place and we, like the rest of nature, have been provided with everything we
need not to just survive but to thrive. We are part of the ebb and flow of life.
For a long time and perhaps even now I didn’t really know what this spiritual substance
meant. But I’ve come to understand that it’s what lies behind every manifest thing. It is
the idea back of money.
So what did that have to do with how I handled it. I was still very anxious about money. I
had grown up with the notion that there was never enough and that it could run out. My
dad said towards the end of his life that he was fearful that the money would run out
before he did. I knew I didn’t want to have that fear running me.
Giving
As I started to explore the idea of giving money away that fear arose in me. How could I
give money when I couldn’t even pay my own bills. The idea seemed preposterous yet I
knew I had to try it. What I was doing wasn’t working. I had “come across” Edwene
Gaines work on Prosperity and a book by Catherine Ponder and they both talked about
how tithing had straightened out their finances. I was terrified to give away 10% of my
income.
But I did it and it’s been the best thing I’ve ever done. The scariest, but the best. Eric
Butterworth says tithing is our “training wheels” and to not get hooked on the amount but
to start to give generously. And that’s what I have done. At first it was a strict 10% and
then over time it’s increased to well over 20%. Emerson said “You cannot outgive God.” I
thought, “why not give it a go.” And you know I think he’s right.
Overcoming Fear
Ever since I started giving my financial affairs have improved and I have pretty much
overcome, I think, my fear that it could run out. There are still moments, especially when I
am about to give a large gift that I feel anxious. I had grown up with such anxiety around
money.
There was always an undercurrent of fear of its lack in my childhood home that I must
have taken on board. “There’s not enough” became the ruling theme. I saw it everywhere.
Not enough money hence my debt, not enough love hence a toxic relationship, not
enough good of any kind hence stressful work.Serving
I loved the idea that I read in Charles Fillmore’s lessons on Prosperity that, “we shall serve
for the joy of serving and prosperity will flow to us and through us.” I didn’t really know
what that would look like or how I could do that but when the opportunity came to serve I
was ready.
At first it was doing volunteer work for the Unity community I was part of in Maine. Then
when we came back to New Zealand the unpaid position of Director of Unity National
School for Australia & New Zealand came up and there was a strong impulse in me that
this was mine to do. I serve for the joy of serving and Charles is right. Prosperity flows to
me and through me.
